"Day after day it reappears, night after night my heartbeat shows the fear"

Well, my placement tests are just around the corner. I know the last thing i should be doing is freaking out, but i can't help myself from doing so. I'm going to a school that i've never wanted to go too. A school filled with people i've simply wanted to get away from. Only to be shoved there because it's what i need to do.

I've been out of school for nearly a year in a half, almost two now. So two years of working and sitting around. Not having to use my head for much other then ideas for stories and Rp.

School had always sucked for me. Like most people of course but still. The point is that i'm going back to something i never liked. Which brings out a new fear, a simple one, but it's a fear. I don't want to go back to my old lazy self, ignoring the work put infront of me only to purposefully distract myself with something meaningless. I want to change and change for the better, but i fear that i will go back to who and what i was before. I simply cannot let that happen. I have to be strong for this metaphorical storm on the horizon, But I won't run, nor will i run head long and hope for the best. I need a plan, and i need those i care about to help me along. Since they are the only things i seem to have left right now.